Be awesome is my 2010's resolution.

After looking at 2009's New Year's Resolution, I realized that I have completed my resolutions. 75% of it, such as:

• I swim regularly this year, well, at least at the middle of the year, since the end of year rains a lot so I'm very lazy to go swimming in the middle of the heavy rain. -.-"
• I bought the camera with my own money. At least, my own effort, the a quarter of the money for camera came from my auntie's kindness. ;)
• I enjoy my life more than evarrrrr.
• I learn things. A lot. Life has a lot of things for us to learn. I learn how to play guitar! I'm learning to love again. I learn to be hardworking. I also learn that my stubbornness is still there and will be there for the rest of my life. :/
• Am I mature in thinking? Well, it's up to what my friends and my family think about it.
• I still do my assignments on the last minute, but hey, I didnt wait till the last minute on my exams. That should be worth something!  ;)
• I know who I love. I also know who my real friends are and who aren't.
  
• I still haven't been a volunteer. But there's still a chance in 2010! 

So, as the year 2009 is going to end, I shall start my 2010 resolutions.

1. Being a volunteer. :D
2. Be more hardworking to keep my grades up!
3. Be a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend (I like how that sounds *wink) and even strangers.
4. Buy an acoustic guitar and learn the strumming patterns!
5. Be a bridesmaid! :p
6. Learn not to trip and bump into people while walking! A careless young lady, I am.
7. Be Awesome.

Only 7 resolutions, not too much since too much of them can cause headache and depression and therefore, killing the spirit of 2010. True story. I hope I can fulfill the seven of them. :)


Happy new year's eve, everyone!

Summer

This is my first time for not staying home at summer.
I hope this is going to be great.
I will be here during Christmas and New Year.
:)

Rambles in the middle of the night. Eh, wait, am i actually awake to type all these?

You think I'm silly not to believe who actually reading my blog secretly.
I mean like the one who's actually reading this and using this blog against me?
I also don't know who you are.
But I'm not gonna find out who you are.
I'm just gonna live my life to the fullest.
I'm not the kind of person I used to be.
Now, I couldnt care less.
Good job!

Well,
I have my insecurities so pardon me if u think my assumption above is wrong!


My boyfriend is out of town.
My sister is available, so I can spend more bitching time with her.
Good on us!
Anddd
Gonna catch up with the girls soon.
I've been taking tuitions here on my holiday, after exams!
Sooo,
It's holiday, I am giving myself a day off.
Not gonna do any homeworks the teacher gave me.
Just for today only.
Tomorrow got a lot of works to catch up on.
He he he.
I know it's for my own good.
But still, I'm on my holiday, actually!
Give me a break!
I need my break for my sanity!
Weeeee
I post a long one after awhile.

Let me tell ya.
I am nervous for my semester 2's final marks.
They r gonna post it online on 4th Dec.
I studied my ass off.
I'm gonna go crazy if I fail this time.

I miss someone up on highland.
I need to smell him.
For my sanity.
Haha.

Today is my bro's birthday!
Gonna force daddy to treat us sushi.
well, not gonna force, just sayin'.

I seriously missed playing guitar.
I even have guitar playing in my dream!
And i missed watching series, I started to make my own series.
-.-"
Gonna save money and trick daddy to buy me some cheap guitar for me to play.
or my lefty gonna be itchy.
Oh God, I miss him.

I just want to help.
I just want you to share.
With me.
not with anyone else.

I am a happy bunnie.

I am happy.
Not only because my exams are over,
Not only because I am going home soon,
Not only because I am gonna meet my girls,
Not only because I am moving on,
Not only because I am lovin' it,
Not only because I am livin' it to the fullest,
It's also because I have a boyfriend and he is also one of my best friends.
Well, who do you think is happier than me?
I am a happy bunnie (quote my sis =p).
I just hope we both don't screw it.
XD

feeling shows. silliness acts.

im acting silly these days.
sooo silly.
after all the experiences that i went through, the lessons learned,
how can i still be like this?

is this my fault?
or just my head doing stuffs that i had to while my feeling said i should not be doing this?

I am really a fool when my feeling shows.
shit.
shit.
shit.

I am a rookie after all of this time.
When am I gonna learn from my bad experiences?
Let the head decide.
No feelings involved.

Hopefully.

Room with mates

I have 2 room mates.
Both of them are busy.
I can't do girls talk with them.
I am not complaining.
I just wanna say.
I miss my room mates.

L-O-V-E is just another word I never learn to pronounce.

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

When Ex girlfriend meets girlfriend.

1. She glanced at me with her oh-this-is-the-ex-who's-hurt-my-boyfriend look, then she smiled and said Hi. but that glance was just soooo hard to miss. I am the ex, remember? Don't worry, I smiled back, guys.
   
2. I thought that I was ok with her. Cause I was glad that my ex has finally already lastly moved on (have i said "finally"?).
3. But then, the next seconds later, I feel a sudden itch of irritation. Then it grew become a real obvious awkward moment cus she sit in front of me. Luckily she sat facing her back. But still, her wing girl sat facing me. -.-"
4. And I became very irritated. Since he moved on first. I know it's not a game, but I feel that it is a very disturbing fact.
5. But then, the awful fact (to the girl) that might be true is that i find it's a lil bit strange that he doesnt bother to "exhibit" their relationship. He used to be like that. Maybe it's a revenge not a pure feeling of lust and attraction (it's too soon to say love =p). They (my friends) predict that. Well, people change, so, who knows? Just sayin'.

The new lessons of life that I learned just a few minutes ago when I meet someone who is currently a girlfriend of the boy that I dumped (quite harshly, I admit):

• Even though you r OK with ur ex moving on, It's not OK, however, to look at his/her current girl/boyfriend in the eye and smile at her. THAT's just not sincere. I suggest just pretend that she's not there. If you can't, just nod ur head to inform that u know she's there and u r not ignoring her. u just dont smile at ur ex's girl/boyfriend.
•  Just forget that he's over you and you can just let go and have fun and happy that he did finally move on. =p
  

Weak and Sick

I miss my normal ordinary family.
I hate hospital.
I hate the aura it gives you.
Depression.
I hate the fact my gran is sick.
I remembered how much I am proud of her because she's so strong.
so solid even though she is already in her 80s.
I guess age catches up with her.
:((
Get well soon, grannie...
Get well soon, Yong's grannie.
Get well soon, Alex Pratama..
Get well soon, Stella Catherine.
All of them are sick and in hosppital. Alex n Stella have high fever. :(((
Bad times of the year...

P.S. It maybe the best time of the year for Feisty Charmaine. She's getting better and better and winning against her "monster". Well done. :)